Don't ever take things for granted ;

Never Ending.

The Two-way Crossed Road.

woke up at 10plus today. I wanted to go swimming so badly so I woke up early. but guess what, I got my period today. so fcuk. LOLS. I'm so pissed off please. ): so change of plan, called Hweehan&told her that I will be meeting her in the afternoon to study. Parents went to buy Breakfast for me. &I ate two red eggs today. hahah. I'm considered one year older already. well, slacked&bath. meet up with Hweehan at Aljunied Mac around 2plus3pm. hahaha. kinda late I know. didnt study much as I'm having cramps. argh. around 4plus, we are kinda tired to continue&I've got the urge to do Facial. so went to do Facial&it cost me $30. hahah. till around 6plus, went Hawker for dinner. bought stuff&headed home around 8plus. reach home, bath&iron uniform. gonna sleep soon. so goodnight everyone.

Aloysius Chea promised to treat me Pizza Hut on my Birthday! hahah. 8 more days! XD I'm looking forward to this day. 8October! dont let it slip your mind people. XD
I've been kinda unlucky these few days. I dont know why. argh. I'm so scare! ):

Its not how much I desire.
Its how much I can receive.

Walk away, Loved. 9:53:00 PM `

我可以忍受。

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受做了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔

爱着你
是我改不了也不愿改的习惯
要放开哪有那么简单
了解你
是我说不出也不承认的悲哀
包容你
是我体谅的爱别当作应该

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受做了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔

爱着你
是我改不了也不愿改的习惯
要放开哪有那么简单
了解你
是我说不出也不承认的悲哀
包容你
是我体谅的爱别当作应该

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受做了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔

不要说对不起
原来你要的不是我
不要说谢谢你
什么你永远在我心中
can u tell me why
这样的我
你也曾爱过
不是嗎

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受做了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔
(是她拥有我没看过的笑容)

Walk away, Loved. 1:14:00 PM `

One more Chance.

woke up at around 11plus today. onlined&discussed with Meimei Dearie on the time&venue to meet as we are planning to go study&she need to collect her Hp from Parkway. so we decided to meet at Parkway at 330pm. Parents went down to buy me my Brunch. hahah. after eating, bath&stuff, leave house around 250pm. took 135 to Parkway. as usual, I'm earlier. LOLS. waited for her for about 20mins or so. when she reached, went to collect her Hp first then went to walk around first before we go study. so around 4plus5pm, headed Mac Cafe. ordered drinks&one Oreo Cheese Cake to share. &we started studying. I finished 2Physics SectionB. hahah. be proud of me. XD ohyesh, Erinna Twinnie came to meet me around 7pm? hahah. she came to pass me my Birthday Present&well, she's the first. hahaha. a White Cardigan. thanks my dear. awhile later, went to walk around with Twinnie as Dearie didnt want to go along. tried a top together but didnt buy in the end. hahaha. around 8plus9pm, Twin headed home&I went back to look for Dearie. we had Mac as dinner&her friend came to look for her. I saw him before but I still forget his name. ohwell, nevermind. hahaha. 4 of that guy's friends joined us later. Meimei were chatting with them while I'm doing my Maths cause I dont know them. LOLS. around 10pm, the guys went to play Pool. Meimei suggested to go with them. well, I'm fine with it. so we walked to Katong&Parkway's one was full. watched them play, me&Meimei lefted around 10plus11pm. took bus40 with Meimei, alighted at my house here, she cabbed home&I walked home.

Its Difficult to Let Go.
But its also ~~Torturing~~ to Hold On.
Nothing but Sorrows in my Soul.
I missed you.

Walk away, Loved. 12:15:00 AM `

Breakable Thread.

Held up so High on Such a Breakable Thread.

Surprisingly, the four of us wore Green House tee today. I swear we didnt know about it before hand. hahaha. &its been a longlong time since we wore the same colour tee. hahaha. well, school was usual. seriously I'm very tired today&I dont know why. my left eye is abit swollen&pain. ): I slept during Maths lesson&during Humans, I'm feeling super unwell. I'm feeling very cold. my hands were like ice though I'm wearing a cardigan&wrapping my Pe shirt around myself. argh. but luckily I'm feeling much better after Recess. I dont want to fall sick&I cant afford to! Physics lesson was a boring one. after Physics was 2periods of Pe. as usual, was sitting under the sun&I'm abit sunburn now. LOLS. well, after Pe, Nancy bullied me again. idiot. LOLS. went back to class with Hweehan&Karmen, Nancy left with Hongying. Hweehan went for her Amaths tuition with Wudi&Feifei. Karmen&Me stayed in class. as usual, I did my Emaths Tys&Karmen were sleeping away. LOLS. around 2plus, Xujun called&said that she's coming to Kovan for lunch&asked us to joined them. went to look for her, Siyong&Amy was there too. had Chicken Rice, after that went Cold Storage with Karmen, she bought stuffs&headed back to school. Hweehan joined us around 3plus4pm. after awhile, I felt very tired&so I slept for around 15mins. hahaha. &well, left the school around 6pm.

Loving you has become a habit.
I dont know how to stop.

Walk away, Loved. 8:42:00 PM `

The way I feel.

Follow The Notes Upon The Journey.
At First Sight Marks One's Destiny.
Once The Voyage Comes To An End.
Return Lies Within Hasty Keys.

its raining heavily this morning. saw Mdm Gao opposite school this morning&she shared umbrella with me&another girl, I dont know her. LOLS. although I'm still half drenched, but still thank Teacher. LOLS. well, school was as usual. one week's gonna end soon. so fast! argh. LOLS. during morning Assembly, 4 Sec2s boys are being caned for bullying their classmate. LOLS. but from what I see, the boy who claim that he was being bullied doesnt look like one. he seems to be sabotaging the four boys? hahah. whatever. teachers always see things on one side of an issue. back to class for lesson. Chinese lesson was a boring one. LOLS. then 2periods of English, Miss Lin Pms as usual. sigh... I dont understand why. issit really our fault or she is being too unreasonable? after that, had 2periods of Physics. lesson was alright. I missed Mr Ong. I still want an A for C.science. ): after that was Recess time&was 2periods of Humans. then 2periods of Poa. as usual, was in the Library with the 3of them. hahah. school ended&went toilet with Bitches. &Nancy tortured me please. like wth. LOLS. I just re-tied my hair&she just grabbed me with her wet hands rubbing my face&my hair is in a mess again. argh. LOLS. after that, went Canteen for lunch&we were laughing like crazy. around 2plus, headed back to class. supposed to have Ss Mock Exam today but guess what, half the class are gone. but well, around 17people stayed. hahah. &surprisingly, those who are usually expected[teachers' apple] to stay, didnt stay&those who usually wouldnt stay[those rotten apples in teachers' eyes, like us], stayed. LOLS. we're proud of ourselves okae. &I really want to see if Mr Tty will punish those people who didnt stay anot. if not I will find it biased. cause if we were the one who are not there, we will definitely be punished. thats so unfair please. hand in the work to Mr Tty&we headed home around 7pm as its raining cats&dogs. &I'm feeling unwell now.

The Joke For The Day:
Erinna named as Fatty,
Nancy named as BombBomb.
Together they are Fatty BombBomb.
Meizhen named as Shortie,
Hweehan named as MuMu.
Together we are Shortie MuMu. -.- LOLS.

Nothing but Motivation please.

Walk away, Loved. 9:26:00 PM `

Dont just walk away.

school as usual. lesson was boring. hahah. Mr Tty show us some disgusting pictures today. its really eewww. LOLS. lucky we didnt vomit as its just after Recess. hahahah. had Assembly today, after Assembly, Graduating Classes are asked to stayed back. they told us about our Graduating Ceremony which gonna take place in 2-3weeks time. ohgod, so sad. I will miss my friends definitely. sigh... ohwell, after that, had English Paper2 Mock Exam. guess I'm not going to do well. I dont understand Passage1 but Passage2 is easy as compared to Passage1. I just wish for a pass. LOLS. after the paper, stayed in class with Erinna, Hweehan&Karmen. till around 4plus, headed Heartland to eat. all of us were hungry. LOLS. had Kfc as one of them suggested. we have been eating alot nowadays. mayb we are too stress. LOLS. thats so shit. I got to go on diet soon. LOLS. after eating, slack around at Heartland&headed home around 6pm.

I'm looking forward to my Birthday.
Though I know nothing special will happen.
What I desire, I will not get.
But no doubt, its still my Birthday.
So, shall hope I have a Wonderful 17 Birthday. (:

Walk away, Loved. 8:41:00 PM `

Keep the Same.

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - incorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

school was as usual. but all of us were very tired today. LOLS. dont know why. somemore first 2periods are English. -.- LOLS. ohwell, I still got lots of homework undone. wanted to finish them up during Poa lesson today but I cant seems to concentrate. LOLS. so forget about it. during Cme lesson today, Miss Liza let us play a game, ErinnaVsJeffery[GaoFei]. LOLS. Gaofei answered more questions but in the end, Erinna won. LOLS. Miss Liza show us our Prelim2 overall results. I'm out of Top10. LOLS. but dont know the result trust-able anot. the L1R4 is calculated wrongly. forget it. hahaha. its sad to mention. well, after school stayed in class with Hweehan&Karmen. did abit of Maths till around 3plus&we were tired&hungry. meet up with Nancy&Hongying. went Hawker&eat Wanton Mee. hahah. went Heartland for awhile&home around 5pm. napped from around 6pm till 7plus. ohwell, at least I dont feel as tired now. hopefully I can finish my Ss homework later.

ohwell, been losing my temper lately especially today. I'm sorry gurls especially Hweehan. but you know I mean no harm. (: hahah. &well, I hope I wouldnt fall sick at this point of time. mug hard people for Nlevel, Olevel&also Eoy. (:

I Will Not Ask For More.
Good or Bad, its my Destiny.
No matter what,
Let me stay as Beautiful as I can be in your eyes.
I would want to be your Sweet Memory.

Walk away, Loved. 7:59:00 PM `

Spare me some Love.

school was as usual. reached school kinda early today. hahah. slack in class. well, lesson was boring. but Chinese lesson was always fun. hahah. Huimin never fail to make me laugh. XD after school at around 245pm, had Emaths Paper2 Mock Exam. the paper was alright. around 6marks dont know how to do&hopefully I didnt make any careless mistakes. hahaha. pray hard! XD I want my A. hahah. the paper ended around 5plus. headed Heartland with Karmen, Hweehan&Mingyi. Nancy joined us awhile later, had Kfc for dinner. after eating, we sat there&chatted. we laughed like crazy. LOLS. its really great chatting with them. no doubt, they seriously clear worries off my mind. they are always loved by me, no matter what. (:

I dont understand what I did to make her hate me so much. ohgod, I guess only some people know who I'm talking about. I did nothing to her&I didnt talk to her more than ten sentences since I know her from Sec1? LOLS. just because I'm good friends with people she likes? but please, I know him since Sec2, what she expect? -.- if just because of this that make her hate me so much, I really got nothing to say. LOLS. childish, yesh very. XD

Somehow Beautiful Moments Never Last Long.
Pause Those Beautiful Moments&I Would Be Really Grateful.
Your Beautiful Smile is Engraved Deep In My Heart.

Walk away, Loved. 9:14:00 PM `

By now.

ohwell, woke up at 11plus this morning&my whole body is aching badly! hands&legs feel as though its going to break anytime. LOLS. slack as usual, received a message from Hweehan asking me whether I wanna go study anot. I agreed because I know if I stay at home, I wouldnt be studying. therefore we decide to meet 3pm at Aljunied Mac. did Emaths W/s, Paper2. we spent like almost 3hours doing that paper. hahaha. but I'm proud of myself, I manage to solve almost all the questions. hahah. but seriously, that paper is kinda difficult as in confusing. hahah. well, tomorrow there's Emaths Paper2 Mock Exam. hopefully I can do well. wish me all the best. LOLS. we stop studying at around 7plus? went to get my Shampoo&reached home around 830pm.

school again tomorrow. &counting down to my Birthday, 2more weeks! to be exact, its 15more days. hahah. but seriously, I'm not expecting anything because its during exam period. -.- so shit. but well, its Always like that. >.<

Walk away, Loved. 10:04:00 PM `

Lose Control.

Nice View, isnt it? (:

ohwell, I'm here to post yesterday's photos&I got to go&bath. meeting Hweehan to study! hahah. I'm named as Office Lady[OL] for the day. like -.- LOLS.

Karmen, Meizhen, Erinna&Xujun.

a fight between School Girl&Office Lady. LOLS.

who won, no idea. LOLS.

Amy mei&LeeXuJun. (:

Karmen&me. we look so cheena. LOLS.

its a Real Snake! LOLS.

I will post again when I get home.

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
How I wish things could really get better.

Walk away, Loved. 1:36:00 PM `

Miracle.

ohwell. woke up at 10am today when I'm supposed to only wake up at 11am. LOLS. slack, bath&stuffs, meet up with Karmen&Erinna at Hougang Mall's Long John at around 1pm. was waiting for Xujun to come&at the same time was messaging with Zhichao. he told me that he's in school&gonna have lunch alone so I asked him to come&join us for lunch. at first he didnt want to come but after that, I also dont know what changes his mind&so he came. hahah. he reached before Xujun&I was like asking him, "ehs, you fly here arh?" LOLS. he ate first&he keep complaining that Long John is not nice. LOLS. sorry lor. XD ohwell, after he eat finish, Xujun came&so they went to order. Xujun helped me to buy, like the first time? XD &when we started eating not long, Zhichao left as he say he wanna go home sleep. -.- LOLS. after eating, walk around&headed Heartland. meet up with Amy&her Bf, Siyong&his friends&Angeline&her friends. Erinna left us after that&we headed to Sentosa. had an event going on, Xujun asked us to go&work so went there to work as waitress, ohwell, the uniform sucks. XD nevermind. &we like stand&walk here&there throughout the whole event which starts around 7pm. my legs are breaking soon. LOLS. &well, home around 12am, cab fare was sponsored by the company. hahah. okae, I'm feeling tired. so goodnight people. photos will be uploaded tomorrow.

Walk away, Loved. 1:30:00 AM `

Above the Sky.

The Beautiful Sky.

school was as usual. got back our Emaths Paper1 Mock Exam. I got 52/67. okae, I'm very happy with the results though it isnt really perfect. but at least I got back my A1. hahaha. claps! XD &well, Tty's lesson were shits. argh. &recess was more shit. I bought a plate of Spaghetti&when I turn&was about to walk to my seat, a Sec3 guy knock onto me&the whole plate of Spaghetti dropped on the floor, &fcuk thing is he didnt say Sorry or anything, he just looked at me&walked away. fcuk man, his parents never teach him manners. Gilbert helped me to scold that guy&asked him to say sorry. fcuk man. argh. I'm super angry. walao, so un-gentleman. people still young lah, cannot blame. argh. &I wasted $1.50. LOLS. thats not the problem but that guy seriously odd to do some soul-searching. fcukfcukfcuk. LOLS. I feel like giving one tight slap when I see him in school again. hahah. had Pe today. but well, Hweehan, Erinna, Karmen, Mingyi&I sit under the sun to enjoy the sun. &now I'm having sunburn. -.- my cheeks, nose, hands&legs are kinda red. LOLS. after school, slack outside Staffroom with Karmen, Erinna, Hweehan, Nancy, Jmo&BenTan. Nancy&Erinna left earlier as Nancy sprained her leg during Pe. the rest of us waited for Miss Chen&teach us some Chemistry. hahah. around 4pm, the session ended, headed Heartland with Hweehan&Karmen. ate at Hawker&reached home around 6plus.

I know you're under the same Beautiful Sky as me.
Let me stay in your Heart forever,
Be it as a Friend or ~~Lover.~~

Walk away, Loved. 9:05:00 PM `

Big Big World.

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes
You're gone

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing
If you leave me
But I do
Feel I will
Miss you much
Miss you much

Walk away, Loved. 10:28:00 PM `

Exhausted.

Blow my Pains away.

ohwell, school was as usual. I'm feeling really tired now. my body is aching badly. left school around 1pm, went Pulau Semakau with Mr Tty, 5B&some sec2s. the trip was alright. but when the Person-In-Charge were talking to us in a room, almost everyone was sleeping. hahah. headed back to school at around 5pm. Hweehan is feeling sea-sick. but I guess she's feeling better now. hahah. I'm a good friend okae, I lend her my shoulders to lean on as she isnt feeling well. hahaha. XD

The Beautiful Sea.

Nancy&I is being alittle crazy. LOLS.

Top: Mingyi, Hweehan&Karmen.
Bottom: Erinna, Meizhen&Nancy.

&well, I proudly present,

Erinna Lin&her Lover! LOLS. see she's smiling so happily. XD

back to school at around 6pm. headed to Hawker for dinner with Karmen, Hweehan&Nancy. after eating, chatted&Xujun joined us awhile later. was feeling really tired so headed home around 8pm.

What I wish to have, may not be what I've got.
So I can only let you go&see you fly.
I'm sad, but there's nothing I can do.
You're happy with your life now, I guess.
Tkcares.

Walk away, Loved. 9:41:00 PM `

Imaginary.

school was as usual. but was an extremely tiring day. first 2period was Chinese but I cant even open my eyes properly. &Huimin was like telling me I look shag, I bet I am. argh. &my irritating nose is killing me. during Poa lesson, which is my free period, the Library was close&Jason they all were nowhere to be found. I ran up&down the stairs to look for them&I gave up. I went to 5B&"joined" them for Amaths lesson. LOLS. Amaths&Poa lesson is so different man. Amaths lesson is so "lively", as in noisy. &Poa lesson is so dead. hahaha. Poa students more serious in their work! XD actually is because Mdm Soo is too strict. hahah. but I still love her. (: had Assembly today&I almost quarrelled with the fcuking Principal. LOLS. Hweehan, Karmen, Nancy&I was doing Emaths Tys, Erinna doing Poa. &the fcuking Mrs Oh, keep asking us to stop doing&concentrate to what the people are talking. ehs, please lah. they are talking whatever trip to HongKong, does that bother us? &we are not even making any noise, we are quietly doing our own work, cant you let us finish our work peacefully? argh. I almost turn my head&scold her. lucky I didnt. LOLS. if not I can forget about taking Olevel. but I'm seriously pissed off, Principal so what, big fcuk? XD after that, school ended. headed Heartland with Hweehan, Karmen, Nancy&Hongying. okae, but I dont know why. we have been very crazy after school these few days. we are simply too high&we kept laughing&laughing. LOLS. I dont know what got into us also. over-stressed? mayb. hahah. lunched at Kfc, like again&headed back to school with Karmen&Hweehan at around 3plus. my stomach was aching badly on the way back to school&I really feel like dying. Hweehan say I look very pale. well, headed home at around 430pm as I really cant stand the pain&Hweehan got tuition at around 5pm. reached home, bath&stuffs. napped for 1hour, from 5plus to 6plus. gonna do Emaths Tys after I end this post. hahahah. so well, tkcares everyone. (:

When you Love/Like someone, is it a must for you to have them?
Personally, I dont think so.
Yesh, if you can be with that someone, it would be really wonderful.
But somehow, somethings just couldnt be forced.
If the feelings are not there, no point having that someone.
What meant to be yours, would be yours.
So, when you Love someone, set them free.
If they return, they are meant to be yours. (:

Walk away, Loved. 7:50:00 PM `

Watching over You.

Lower the Expectations to Lessen the Disappointments. :D

okae, this shall be short&sweet. I still got English Compo to finish up&to do my Emaths Tys. Mugmugmug! LOLS. school was as usual. not feeling really well, stomach&nose is giving me headache. argh. well, had Emaths paper1 Mock Exam today. the paper was manageable but made afew careless mistakes. hopefully I could get back my A, Miss Liza was like telling me that my Emaths drop alot. hahah. I'm sorry Miss Liza, I promise to get my A back. (: after that, lunched in the Canteen with Hweehan, Nancy, Karmen&Hongying. then went back to class, didnt really study, was feeling tired after doing the Mock Exam. hahahah. headed home with Hweehan around 5pm as she got tuition.

If you ever feel lonely,
Turn&Look back.
You know I'm always here for you,
Like what I promised.

Walk away, Loved. 7:37:00 PM `

Somehow, somehow.

I arent easy to find,
I'm one of a kind.

oh god, I'm having cramps now&its seriously killing me. I'm having running nose as well as cough. how shit can that be. Olevel's in 1month's time&now I'm sick. gross. someone bring me to the Doctor pretty please? hahahah. ohwell, tomorrow having Emaths paper1 mock exam. how am I suppose to do well when I'm feeling so unwell. argh. I shall eat Panadol before I go to bed today&hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. school was as usual. after school, went Kfc for lunch with Nancy, Karmen&Hweehan. walked around Heartland&went Popular. we are like stuck there for almost 20mins! LOLS. &well, headed back to school at around 4plus. went back to class&we started doing Maths Tys. hahahah. Nancy left with Yanming around 5plus. &the three of us left around 6plus. Karmen went for tuition while me&Hweehan headed home.

Somehow somehow.
I just cant get everything right.
But I will learn to ~~let go.~~
There got to be something for my soul somewhere. (:

Walk away, Loved. 8:33:00 PM `

Standing strong.

F.A.T.E

ohwell, its Sunday once again. another week gone, one week nearer to Olevel. stressed please. I keep telling myself to mug hard but I'm so hooked onto the Computer. LOLS. I will mug hard, I must mug hard. motivate me people, I guess I need them badly. hahahah. woke up at 11plus today, feeling tired. but well, slack,did some Emaths questions. went downstairs for dinner with my Parents at around 8pm. had Bbq fish again&chicken wings. hahah. I ate Bbq fish with Hweehan that day also. well, oilyoily! Omg, Fats! LOLS. okae, this is so random. &my Birthday is coming soon in 3weeks' time. how would it be, I wonder. hahahah.

Bitches,

Thanks for Always being there when I need someone.
Even after we graduate,
I'm sure our Sistership will lasts.
I love you girls.
Each&every one of you.

Besties,
I miss you girls.
Take good care of yourself.
Loves.

Everyone in my life,
I love all of you&you're never forgotten!

Walk away, Loved. 9:54:00 PM `

Journey.

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.
To you

By Angela Zhang.

天下起雨了，人是不快乐。

Walk away, Loved. 2:43:00 PM `

A Different Way.

ohwell, first thing first. Happy Birthday Jolin Tsai.
I know she will never see this.
but well, in my eyes, she's always the best.
the Most Confident&Beautiful Princess. (:

I woke up at 10plus this morning. what an early time to wake up on a beautiful Saturday. though I'm feeling tired but I just cant seems to get back to sleep. I've been yawning&yawning. argh. slack&received a call from AngEngKeat. so great to see him calling, so afraid that he will still be angry. hahah. but well, we are back to normal&he will always be the Laopa who dote on me most. hees. chatted for awhile, then he went for his lunch. I slack my time till around 3plus, bath&went to Mac to meet up with Hweehan to study at around 5pm. we ate first then she suggested to go her house to study. &so, we went. I finished my Chemistry Corrections&read through some Physics notes. we watch Secret Dvd she rent. but the Disc seems weird, some part were cut off. well, &I walked home around 9plus.

We parted for good I guess.
But when we meet again,
Look my way&smile.
Talk to me&joke.
Because no matter what,
You'll still be my most cherished friend. (:

Walk away, Loved. 10:05:00 PM `

Walking&walking.

How do you react to compliments?

Here is the analysis:
If you shift the compliment towards someone else, it means you are a loyal friend and enjoy being part of a team. You are helpful and dedicated to your work. You believe that everybody is equal and hate all kinds of discrimination.

Your Hidden Talent

Here is the analysis:
The Mass Communicator
You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

How attractive are you?

Congratulations!
You are extremely attractive to the opposite sex. You are not only good looking but your personality is also charming in many ways.

You know how to get along with people and can allocate your time well. You are always popular among the opposite sex.

Emotion Test

Here is the analysis:

Your emotional controlled rate: 40%
You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.

Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

Psychological Test

Here is the analysis:
You have a complicated personality.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: top.
You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is medium.
Diamond means stubborn personality.
You are also superior and impressive.
You are an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.

What kind of person are you?

Here is the analysis:
You are an outgoing and cheerful person. Although you get frustrated sometimes, you get through hard times easily and are joyful again.

Your friendly personality makes you attractive in the eyes of the opposite sex, but this makes your spouse feel insecure. Your lack of emotion is a disadvantage, but your candor has made you popular.

Friends of your gender find it hard to understand you because of your innocent thinking. But this is your advantage as it attracts members of the opposite sex who have the same personality as you.

Love Test

Here is the analysis:
When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.
You give 60% to your relationship and expect to receive 40% in return.
If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself.
You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible.
You accept your loved one the way they are. You don't expect him or her to change for you.
When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.

Walk away, Loved. 1:22:00 PM `

Friends forever?

ohwell, school was as usual. but well, because of the tiff we had yesterday, the way we talked to each other today is really really weird. I dont know how to explain, but we seems like that we just know each other today. we dont click, we dont laugh&we didnt really smile. is this how our Friendship will be like? our bonding arent that weak isnt it? I dont know whether I did anything wrong anot, you said no but the way you are today, make me feel that I did something wrong. we said before to talk things out whenever we have anything unhappy, didnt we? but why arent we doing so? I dont understand, I really dont. sigh... after school, stayed in class with Hweehan&Karmen. Nancy&Erinna went for lunch&well, we seems to be living in different world, arent we? I dont know what I can do to make the situation better, I'm afraid we might quarrel, like again. argh. ohwell, did Emaths W/s. I promise to get a A for my Emaths no matter what. I want back all my As! &well, left school around 6plus. Karmen headed for dinner with her family. Hweehan&I took bus home. after we alight, I'm not in the mood to go home so early so I suggested to go dinner at my house downstairs. &when we were about to finish, I saw my Parents. LOLS. so coincidental. hahahah. &well, I'm home around 8pm.

You have my wishes in everything you do. (:
I will stay strong,
Nothing's gonna pull me down. :D

Walk away, Loved. 10:00:00 PM `

On my way.

ohwell, school as usual. ErinnaTwin&I was caught by Mr Neo because we didnt clip our fringe, he asked us to stand up&walked out of the hall. but lucky we are not given green form or anything, he just talk to us&ask us to clip our fringe if not he will make us stand infront of the whole school. hahahahah. then after that, went back to class&lesson starts. after school, was in class slacking, then Nancy&Hweehan were like talking about going to Taiwan&stuffs. then after that, Karmen&Cassandra said something wrong&make Nancy cry. ohwell, am I at fault also? I dont know. after that at 2plus, had geography lesson at Ava Room with 5B. MrTty was talking about Olevel&stuffs, &suddenly he said "Meizhen, You can do it, Erinna, You also." & a second later, our face were red. he love to give me shocks out of my life by saying something-so-unrelated all of a sudden. LOLS. after lesson, headed back to class&started doing Geography Corrections. everyone's mood was affected by the tiff we had earlier on. well, I hope everything is alright now. headed home around 6plus.

Follow your heart.
Do&go for what you think is right.
I cant make you change your mind.

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管不着
my blog song, by Selina.

一个姓名遥远又熟悉
朋友偶尔提起居然还在意
也许只是天气让我有点忧郁
也许在我心底你从来不曾真的离去
Chorus:
只是你的一切我再也管不着
不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好
身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑
亲吻的味道也变了你已把我忘掉
是你的一切我再也管不着
你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好
不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门
如果说遗憾我承认但你已陌生

一段感情只剩下话题
不敢思索过去和你的甜蜜
那双天真眼睛有没有人会珍惜
最爱的小点心她会不会学着去料理
Chorus:
只是你的一切我再也管不着
不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好
身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑
亲吻的味道也变了你已把我忘掉
是你的一切我再也管不着
你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好
不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门
如果说遗憾我承认但你已陌生
怎能把我忘掉

Walk away, Loved. 8:40:00 PM `

Long long Journey.

ohwell, the journey back home today is like super duper long. perhaps because I'm alone&my mind is running wild. okae, Prelim2 is really a gone-case for me. English is the only subject that is not given back yet I guess. sigh... well, school was alright. after school, slack in the Canteen, have lunch&around 2plus3pm, headed to Nancy's house with Hongying. Hongying did her homework&I do my Emaths TYS. Hongying left around 4plus. I continued doing&also watch show with Nancy. &headed home alone at around 6plus. Nancy brought me to the wrong bus stop&I went the wrong direction. alighted at opposite Heartland&walked opposite to take 80 home. the journey home is really long&music is now my best companion. I'm feeling so empty inside, so busy out there.

You used to be my best companion.
I could tell you everything&anything.
As I know you're always there for me.
But not now anymore.
You seems better off without me.
No doubt,
They are definitely better girls than me.
Every message I send represent how much I'm missing you.
I'm sorry if you find it irritating.
No matter what,
I really thankyou for loving me once.

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Try this! its quite Accurate!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

How well do you get along with others?

Here is the analysis:
You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

The Real You.

Here is the analysis:
1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 90%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Walk away, Loved. 8:28:00 PM `

Nothing without you.

Love Meizhen No More People, She Scored Badly for her Prelims&she odd to be Dead, like Seriously Dead. How could you bloody expect a person scoring all Cs to get into a Poly or rather a good course? Good Job man Meizhen. you have done yourself so proud. &for that, You Are Out of Top10 for now! walao~ fcuking shit isnt it? I cant take it anymore. guess I'm going crazy soon. I have the urge to give up for Olevel&there I go, into a Ite.

school was alright. was caught in the rain early in the morning, well, fever here I come. sigh... nobody would care I guess. school was boring, because my results were like shit. ohwell, Erinna&Hweehan broke test tubes today during Chemistry lesson when we are doing Practical. LOLS. Erinna paid 30cents&Hweehan paid 90cents. ohwell. LOLS. after school, stayed in class for awhile with Erinna, Hweehan&Karmen, Chrystal join us awhile later. then went Canteen to meet up with Nancy&Hongying. saw Mrs Chew&we were running like some crazy woman as we want to know how we did for our Physics Paper. well, the result shall be kept private, but if you really want to know all my results, ask me Personally. hahahah. awhile later, headed Heartland with the 5 of them. so great that Erinna was with us for the first time. LOLS. we were separated while eating lunch cause Erinna wanted to eat Chicken Rice while Chrystal wants to eat Kfc. Karmen pei Chrys while the rest of us went Hawker. after eating, meet up&went for a walk at Heartland then all of a sudden, Erinna say she feel like going shopping. -.- she suggested to go Vivo&so, being BFF, all of us went with her. she bought 3tops in total if I dont remember wrongly. Chrystal, Karmen&Hongying left us around 530pm. left with Hweehan, Erinna, Nancy&Me. walked around then went Foodcourt for dinner. then headed home around 7plus. what a tiring day. LOLS.

Let me be part of you,
Before everything ends.
Would you?
Somehow I wish,
I could still look into your eyes.
I could still feel your warm.
I could still have your love.
I really wish.
The ways you seems to be avoiding me,
Make me feel so lost.
It so difficult for me to even look up at you&smile.
In my heart,
I'm praying you would still look my way.
Baby,
You are Beautiful&I missed you Badly.
Just as I'm trying so hard,
You gave up.
Sigh...

Walk away, Loved. 8:49:00 PM `

Late.

Olevel is coming in 1month's time.
Am I prepared?
Definitely a No.
Will I do well,
I've been wondering too.
I need some motivation to mug hard I guess.

okae people, Lum Mei Zhen is Late for school today. LOLS. like so shit please, I waited for the fcuking 62 for 20bloody mins! LOLS. ohwell, who cares. school was alright. got back Chemistry&Geography Prelim2 Papers today&guess what, I failed both. Good Job man. LOLS. Chemistry Practical, I got 6/15, SectionB, I got 15/45. hahahah. what a lousy result I have. Mcqs&SectionC marks still dont know yet, but guess I wouldnt do very well also. Geography I got 18/50. hahahah. its consider not bad already okae?! XD guess tomorrow will be getting back Emaths Papers, wish me all the best man. hahahah. after school, went Hawker for lunch with Hweehan, Erinna&Karmen. Hongying joined us awhile later, after eating, went Heartland for a walk, okae, its super boring. sigh... at around 4pm, headed home. Hweehan came to my house as I need her help to pack my worksheets into my files. hahah. thankyou so much man. (: ohwell, thats all, I still got Geography Corrections to finish up.

ohyesh, Mr Tty gave me a shock of my life today. LOLS. he was teaching/talking half-way&suddenly,
MrTty: "Ohyah Meizhen, your letter have been approved already."
Me: turned&"huh?" [in my mind thinking, when did I ever write a letter for him?] LOLS.
MrTty: "about the Classrooms. Did Mrs Lim.Foo told you anything?"
Me: shaking my head. [then I realised which letter he's talking about.] LOLS.
MrTty: "You all can use the Classrooms after school......& he continue." [I forgot what exactly he say, but I got what he wants to say.] LOLS.
And everyone's attention is on me. -.- but I'm wondering how come he knows I'm the one he wrote the letter when I sign off with Chairman of 5A, with Nancy's consent ofcourse. LOLS. my handwriting? errs... LOLS.

You once told me that I'm veryvery Important,
Remember?
So now,
I want to know am I still as Important?
I guess the answer would be a no.
But I hope it wouldnt be.

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Are you Naughty or nice Your Result: Your Nice! all sugar, no spice! You're all about sweetness, sunshine, and smiles. We've never met anyone nicer than you. Actually, we wouldn't be surprised to come across you sitting in a peaceful green meadow, surrounded by adorable baby animals eating out of your hand whilst your halo shines in the sun. Ah, we're just taking the mickey. But you are awfully good. Certainly, you may have dipped your toe in the naughty pool once or twice, but you generally stay in the shallow end, leaving the deep waters to the leather-and- nude-magazine crowd. It's all well and good to follow the straight and narrow, but it's okay to walk on the wild side once in a while, too. Have a drink. Organise a practical joke. Go to a strip club. Trust us - as long as no one gets hurt, it's fun to be bad!
your Naughty! wild thing!
Are you Naughty or nice

Walk away, Loved. 7:35:00 PM `

How deep?

okae, shall blog early today&try to sleep early tonight. school's starting tomorrow. thats shits, no more fun, no more slack, I have to mug hard&I hope I will. one year is ending soon, in 3months time&I'm out of Yuying. I wonder how would my life be. ohwell, I woke up at 11plus today. slack, EngKeat called me at around 1plus, &guess what, we quarrelled. Good Job man Meizhen, its kind of him to actually call you to see how you've been doing&just because you're not in good mood, you lose my temper on him, its my fcuking attitude. I'm sorry Laopa, very sorry. been in very lousy mood these few weeks. so people, if I've given you attitude these few weeks, pardon me, I really dont mean it. was out with my parents today at around 2plus? I think so. hahah. went Singapore Post to pay bills then went Kfc to eat. &guess what, I ordered Cheese Fries&usually, I will be the one finishing everything. but today, I ate like less than ten fries, I dont feel like eating already&I gave them to my parents. LOLS. well, after eating, went Parkway with them. walked&shopped. bought 2tops&1 pair of m)phosis flipflop. hahah. Mum paid, how great. XD &well, headed home around 7plus.

How deep is your love Baby,
Tell me so.
In my eyes,
Baby, you're all that matters.
Tell me how am I suppose to forget,
When I close my eyes,
I think of you.

Walk away, Loved. 8:09:00 PM `

Your Warm Hug.

Time seems passing by so slowly now.
I'm feeling so dead.
I wish you were just here with me.

well, I couldnt get to sleep last night again. guess I'm suffering from Insomnia, this is happening every night, and if it continue, I'm gonna suffer big time when school reopen. slept around 3plus last night or rather this morning. sigh... this is so so so bad. my whole body is aching now due to not enough sleep. my hands are aching due to Bowling on Thursday. LOLS. my legs are aching due to walking too much. Argh~ kill me please, so that I wouldnt feel the pain anymore&I guess I would feel much much better than now. woke up at 1plus today, feeling dead. was too lazy to go out as I think I went out too much already&I'm super broke now so just wish to stay at home today. but I did went out&had lunch/dinner with Hweehan at around 5pm, chatted&stuffs. hahaha. walked around&home around 7plus.

I smile,
I laugh.
But I'm not happy,
I'm not okae.
To forget,
Its never as easy as it seems to be.
Mayb you have forgotten Everything.
Mayb she has already got your heart back.
I dont know.
All I know is,
I dont seems to be doing fine without you.

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Your Heart is Feeling Broken

Your heart is pretty much destroyed right now, and it's hard for you to think of anything else.
You are in deep despair, and sometimes it feels like you will never love again.
Your hear may be at its lowest point right now. Things can only get better from here.

Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Being swept away by the wrong person

Your current outlook on love: You find yourself wondering if love is ever worth it

Your love life will improve if you: Take a lot of steps back. You're in no shape to fall in love right now.

Watch out for: Anyone who may try to take advantage of your fragile state.

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

You are a Romantic Realist

Okay, so you fall in the middle.
You know that love isn't like a greeting card...
Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.

You are the best of both worlds
Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.
Almost any guy can find balance with you.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

Walk away, Loved. 8:53:00 PM `